27/02/2023
I used to study from a desk at the school library, but I can't anymore. I will sit at it and immediately there is a Pavlovian response where I get far too horny and want to touch myself.
I get too unfocused and get no work done.
This issue started when I started touching myself during some of the online lectures I'd take which were easier for me to do at the library.
Everyone had their cameras off and was muted. Some live lectures can be so slow, the lecturers take so long to explain so my attention span can waver. I start daydreaming about more fun things like being exposed in public instead.
So I started masturbating by squeezing me legs together to keep it entertaining! I did this sporadically at first but then I became pretty good at rubbing my cunt and cumming while simultaneously listening to lectures on topics such as simultaneity.
But this has become a problem now when revising for exams. I need to be focused now, but I try to revise and my hands waver and I get so distracted touching myself. I try resist but it's so difficult, my cunt still drips and calls to me.
I've moved to studying to a coffee shop or at home for now, I don't want to fail my exams because of this. As hot as it is, that library desk is now an auto-horny space.