15/12/2022
This is diary entry from 2002 when I was 21 and writing down my thoughts and dreams. I had forgotten about it until we moved and I finally found the time to go through my old files. Thought it would be interesting reading material for the story section.
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Last night when I went to bed I just couldn’t sleep at all, I felt really tired but I kept being awakened more and more by how horny I was getting. I had spent a lot of the day being lazy in bed, looking at some of my favourite chick flick and teasing myself or masturbating to the "good scenes". But now at night, I found myself desperate to touch myself again.
Despite the fact that the housemate who sleeps in the room next to me was here last night, I decided I had to try to make myself squirt again (normally I wait until everyone is out).
I was soaking before I had even touched myself. I felt desperate to feel the pressure of someone on top of me on the bed and a light grip around my neck maybe... I reached down inside my pyjamas and shuddered slightly feeling how wet I was.
I circled my clit, teasing myself for a while, then faster until I was on the verge of orgasm. I kept myself on the edge for a while, I’m not sure how long, but it felt so good teasing myself, feeling how desperately my body wanted to make myself cum.
I slipped one finger inside myself at first, using my other hand to slowly continue rubbing my clit. It wasn’t long before I slid another finger inside.
I used both my hands slowly on myself for a while, rubbing my clit slowly in circles with my left hand, the fingers of my right hand gently sliding in and out, feeling how warm and slippery I was inside. My clit kept me close to orgasm while I could feel a sort of more radiant wave of pleasure just beginning to rise from my fingers inside me.
I closed my eyes and my imagination was full of imagery. Of scenes I had just watched, of myself being fingered hard by someone kneeling at the end of my bed who then slips their tongue between my wet lips, of having a girl sitting on my face while I touched myself, of a guy thrusting hard into me.
My brain was filling up with erotic images faster than I could even process them. I didn’t even really realize that I had already begun to finger myself quite hard thinking about all of this happening to me. Somehow my sleepy, dreamy haze had pushed my imagination into overdrive that I had nearly forgotten that the pleasure I was feeling was coming from myself masturbating.
I opened my eyes and suddenly I felt fully alert, back in the room, I could hear how wet I was, my pussy was so loud at that moment. I couldn’t stop fingering myself hard even though my arm ached from the strain, even though I somehow knew that my groans and pussy were probably audible in the next room if she wasn’t asleep. But I really couldn’t stop.
I could feel myself beginning to cum, strained groans rising out of my throat as I tried to hold them back to keep quiet. I took a deep breath and suddenly moved my fingers inside me, and on my clit as fast as I possibly could. My legs were flailing, my toes were curled and I felt my pussy cumming but not squirting, but I kept going as long as I could.
I don’t know how to describe what happened other than, while I was orgasming, I had another earth-shattering orgasm on top of it.
I felt my pussy actually push my fingers out of myself quite forcefully. At this point I accidentally groaned ridiculously loudly as I saw a small jet of liquid shoot up from between my legs while my whole body writhed in pleasure.
My hands were clasped to my hips and then my breasts as I watched and felt my pussy squirt two more smaller jets of cum from between my legs. I’ve genuinely never felt so satisfied after cumming, and while I sort of felt as though I could go again, the panic/surprise of actually squirting made me feel like I should stop there.
My heart was pounding for a long time with excitement after it happened and it was even harder to sleep then. I’m actually pretty exhausted writing this now as I slept so badly, but I needed to record it!
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Poster:
Nancy