30/05/2021
PY here again. Ever since my late husband Lee J began posting here a few years ago, we have heard from a number of TODP readers. Sadly, very few have been women. I would love to hear from more women, however, I recently did hear from a woman who was very complimentary and asked if would write and share when and how I lost my virginity. I told her I would, so here it is.
If you have been reading our posts from the very beginning, you will know that I have loved exhibitionism, naturism and sex. However, many of you may not know that I wasn’t always that way. In fact, I was raised in a very conservative home where I was taught that a woman’s virginity was something special that she saves for her husband on her wedding night, a night I’ll never ever forget.
When Lee and I began dating, I was still a virgin and when things got serious, I told him so and that I wanted to save it for my wedding night and he said he understood and honored my feelings. During our engagement, I knew he wanted more physical interaction than I was giving him, but he was so great and understanding and vowed to honor my wishes.
I didn’t really think about the wedding night until after the reception and we were on our way to our first apartment. That’s when it dawned on me that I was about to expose myself to a man for the very first time in my life. All my doctors had been women and no man had even seen naked, but I knew that was all about to change. My emotions were running wild. I was excited and overjoyed to be married to this wonderful man and at the same time I was getting very nervous and anxious about our wedding night. I also kept thinking about what my mom told me about how losing one’s virginity is often painful. I was also worried that Lee would not like my tiny body.
When we arrived at the apartment, my emotions and feelings felt like they were in a blender getting all mixed together. Then Lee, easily picked me up and carried me into our apartment. It was easy for him as he was over 6 feet tall and very athletic, and I was a mere 5 foot and weighed only 84 pounds. Our difference in size led many to refer to us as Mutt and Jeff.
Once inside, I wanted to embrace him and run at the same time. I ended up jumping up and wrapping my arms around his neck and we kissed for minutes and minutes. We ended the kiss, I settled back on the floor and we stood there looking at each other. In a trembling voice, I asked him to be gentle. He looked down at me with those deep wonderful eyes of his and told me not to worry and then called me Mrs. J** and I just about melted at the words.
I knew I was shaking, but I turned my back to Lee and asked him to unzip my wedding dress and help me out of it. I almost jumped as he slid the zipper down my back and then slide the dress off my arms. He began to take the dress down until I told him that it had to go up. He lifted the dress up and over my head and carefully placed in over a chair in the room. I then took the hoops off that were under my dress and turned around to face my new husband. Even though I was still wearing my bra, pantyhose and panties, I felt so naked standing there in front of him.
I took off his tux jacket, vest and tie. I unbuttoned his shirt and he took it off as I was too short to take it off of him. He took of his undershirt and I fell into his muscular chest and tried to squeeze him but my arms were too short to reach around him. As I was melting into his chest, I did jump when I felt him unhook my bra. I was afraid to move away from him knowing that when I did, my bra would fall away, exposing my breasts. Yes, I wanted it to happen and yet I didn’t want it to happen. The inevitable finally happened and we parted and my bra fell away and I felt so vulnerable. I couldn’t help but stiffen up as his big hands reached out towards my breasts and he sensed it and stopped. I apologized and told him that they were now his and to go ahead. When his hands did encompass my breast, it felt like hundreds of tiny electrical shocks emanating from me breasts. I was surprised that I also felt it in my pussy, something I had never experienced.
I knew things were getting closer to the moment of truth and even though my emotions had been so churned up, having his hands on my breasts seem to help settle them down. I guess I was still nervous, but reached out to unbuckle his tux pants, when he sensed my clumsiness and took over undoing his pants and letting them slide down his legs. He slipped his shoes off and then stepped out of the pants.
There we were, me in just pantyhose and panties and him in his briefs with an obvious bulge. I thought to myself that I had never seen what a man really looks like other than in biology textbooks.
Lee laid me back on the bed and told me to lift my butt as he hooked his thumbs into my pantyhose and worked them over my hips and off my legs. He stood me back up and we faced each other. Then he knelt in front of me and slowly slid my panties down and off. Would you believe I closed my eyes, fearing how he would react when he saw my body. The next thing I felt was his hands on my naked butt and his hot breath on my pussy, followed by a series of gentle kisses. At the time, I wasn’t sure how to describe the feelings I had as his hot lips pressed softly on my bush and pussy.
Lee stood up and I saw this huge bulge in his briefs and even though I was so curious, I was afraid to see it. He whispered it was my turn and I knew he wanted me to pull his briefs down. I felt like I was all thumbs as I fumbled putting my fingers into the waistband of his briefs and started to pull them down. I literally jumped back in huge surprise as his cock sprang up and nearly hit me in the face. To me, it was huge and then I realized that it was supposed to fit inside me and I was certain there was no way that would ever fit. I began to cry feeling that I was going to be a big disappointment to him and began to fear he would stop loving me.
Lee took me in his arms and tried to comfort me and told me not to be afraid and asked what was wrong. It took me awhile through my sobbing to tell him I was afraid of disappointing him when it came to sex and fearing he would not fit inside me. He did his best to assure me it would be okay and that he would be gentle and if I wanted to stop, all I had to do was tell him and he would stop. I don’t know how long I sobbed, but eventually I calmed down and said I was ready to try. Lee picked me up and laid me on the bed. As he spread my legs, I felt so vulnerable and embarrassed and scared. He leaned in and kissed me on my pussy and licked along it, sending wild sensations coursing through my body, causing me to shake all over.
Then the moment came and Lee positioned himself between my legs and I couldn’t help but tense up. He kept telling me to relax, it will make it easier. I felt the tip of his cock gently press against my opening. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t relax. I was so uncertain, that I closed my eyes. He rubbed his cock up and down my slit and I burst into a massive orgasm, the first one of my life. As I convulsed, Lee slowly applied more pressure and begin to slide inside. The pressure against my hymen increased and I felt it start to tear. It burned and hurt, just as mom had warned me. I wanted to stop, but was afraid of stopping for fear of what Lee would do, so I bit my lip and decided to bear it out.
A little more pressure and more tearing and burning. Lee saw the grimace on my face and asked if I wanted him to stop and I shook my head no and whispered for him to continue. All at once, I felt the final tear and his cock slid in deeper. He started to slowly work it in and out, each time going a little deeper. The stinging pain eventually began to subside and before long, I was feeling a pleasure I had never known before. It was then that I orgasmed a second time. As the pain subsided, so did my fears. They were replaced with an ecstasy that I had never known before. It was incredible.
Then I felt Lee’s cock swell even bigger, followed by a warm sensation deep within me. At the age of 20 at that moment, I realized that I had truly changed from a girl into a woman and wife.