22/07/2020
My girlfriend and I have been together for two years. We have explored her with other men on multiple occasions, and I now realize have pretty much had only positive experiences. For me, the experience of this in my actual relationship is intensified by two things.
I am the only person she has slept with. (When we first started dating, I was "the only one" for plenty of other things, but that is no longer the case...) She is extraordinarily attractive. Like, so attractive it's unfair. Just, astonishing. (I really enjoy sharing pictures of her, but I wouldn’t do so without her giving the go-ahead.) A bit of backstory: A few months ago, we had our most intense experience to date, which involved her giving a blowjob to another guy for the first time.
Ever since then, her and I have laughed together about the fact that he’s still the last person she has given a blowjob to. At first it made me confused and jealous, and even frustrated, but I soon found myself enjoying the idea that maybe certain things are reserved for other guys. I wonder if she was also enjoying that same aspect of it, or if I’m just a little bit delusional.
Typically, her and I both freelance locally, but she recently accepted a freelance gig which involves 5 weeks of traveling around the state. Not only is she working alongside other freelancers, but they are also all traveling together, and staying in hotels together. The night before she left, as we found ourselves in bed and naked, she told me “I want to go down on you.” It was an intense moment for me! After months of wondering if blowjobs were being intentionally denied to me, I felt like I was receiving a special and rare gift.
Earlier tonight, only four days into her trip, texts ensue:
It's funny, this is so amazingly similar to cheating, and yet the honesty, trust, and shared satisfaction actually make it the exact opposite. I don't believe that consensual cheating can exist in an otherwise unhealthy relationship. For some reason, in past experiences we've had when things have progressed further, I have found myself wanting to reach out to the other guy, in the situation, and thank them. I don't exactly know what that's about, or what it is about that gesture that I'm drawn to.
The type of jealous arousal I experience when something like this happens is kind of overwhelming! (But in a great way.)
Poster:
JR