25/10/2018
Tuesday, the doctor gave me the okay to try to have vaginal sex, but warned me to use lots of lubricant and if it was too uncomfortable to stop and wait a few more days.
For those of you not familiar with me, my vagina closed up over 15 years ago. During that time, doctors told me that the tissue fused together, preventing me from having vaginal sex for the past 15 years.
I finally found a specialist who said he could try to re-open or rebuild my vagina. When I went in for surgery, the specialist realized that the tissue hadn’t fused together, but that a gland had somehow started producing a glue-like substance and glued me shut. He was able to use something to dissolve the glue and then removed that gland.
The process left my vagina pretty irritated and sore, but with some medication, the soreness faded away.
My husband, Lee J passed away last year, but not before fathering his only child with our new neighbors and friends Jack and Mandy. Going into the surgery, I promised Jack that he would be my first partner after all these years. I feel guilty I didn’t find this doctor before Lee passed away, but it is what it is and I can only regret it and try to move on.
Jack, Mandy and Little Jack (Jake) were over for dinner Wednesday night with expectations of Jack and me having sex. Little Jack is too young to realize what is happening and Mandy breast fed Jake while we were eating and by the time dinner was over he was sound asleep.
After dinner, we moved to the living room. Mandy sat across from Jack and me.
Jack kissed me and I kissed him back and then I lifted his shirt off over his head. He returned the favor by unbuttoning my blouse and taking it off my shoulders. I glanced over at Mandy and she was keeping pace with us and had her top off as well.
I reached for Jack’s slacks and unfastened the belt, button and unzipped his fly. I motioned him to stand up and I pulled his slacks down and he stepped out of them. He did the same for me, undoing my slacks and then sliding down my legs and I stepped out of them. Mandy was now out of her slacks as well.
Jack unfastened my bra and Mandy took her bra off. Since I was also able to nurse Jake, my milk started to let down and Jack immediately latched onto one of my breasts and began drinking. With his one hand, he was playing with the milk that was slowing leaking out of the other breast. After a bit, he changed, licked off the leaked milk and then began sucking the other breast.
I’ve heard from some ladies who did not enjoy breast feeding but this is one lady who absolutely loves it. I enjoy it when Jake and Jack suckle from me. It’s hard to explain, some of you ladies may understand, but it’s a very fulfilling, secure, intimate and wholesome feeling all wrapped up into one glorious time. When Jack is nursing, it’s also quite sensuous.
Just a note, there was one evening when Jack was sitting between Mandy and me and he was squirting our milk and trying to drink it in the air. It made a mess everywhere but was lots of fun and erotic.
Jack stood up and I slipped his shorts down and off. He was already hard with anticipation, perhaps from the suckling, but I went ahead and sucked on his cock for a minute as I know how much he loves it.
Then I stood up and he slid my panties down and off. Mandy was also naked by now.
Jack licked the outside of my pussy and ad then inserted his tongue. In the past he did this and it only went it about half and inch, but this time, he was able to get his tongue in as far as he could and it felt so good that I came instantly.
Even though I was getting quite wet naturally, which was something the doctor said should happen but he couldn’t guarantee, given the weird circumstances of my pussy, I grabbed a tube of lube and spread some on Jack’s cock and then put a generous amount around the lips of my pussy and inside.
I leaned back and asked Jack to go gently as it hasn’t been used in a very long time.
Jack was great and gentle. He rubbed the head up and down the outside and I came again. Then he slipped the head inside and WOW it felt great. I nodded to him to continue and he ever so slowly worked more and more of his cock inside.
It was a little tender at first but that soon faded as the pleasure of feeling a hard cock inside me for the first time in over 15 years over took me. I was so emotional that I began crying tears of joy. At first, Jac thought he was hurting me and began to pull out and I told him no, that they were tears of joy and begged him to continue.
He commented on how tight and how great I felt. I think the anticipation got the best of him also as it didn’t take him long to empty his hot load deep inside. Again, I began crying tears of joy. I didn’t realize how much I missed that feeling. I tried to hold him inside for as long as I could, but he went soft and fell out.
Mandy quickly came over and began licking me clean. Afterwards, she hugged and kissed me and told me how happy she was for me. We held each other for I don’t know how long. Jack joined in and the three us just held each other naked, kissing and caressing each other. It was a beautiful time.
The doctor warned me not to overdue it at first, so as much as I wanted more, I realized that we had best stop there. The doctor also warned me to wait a day or two after the first time as soreness could develop, so we set a date at their house for three nights from tonight.
They got dressed, gathered Jake and walked back to their house. I poured myself a glass of wine, curled up on the sofa, in front of the fireplace, watched the flames and cried for joy and because I was flooded with feelings of how much I missed Lee and how much I wished I had done this before he died.
I must have cried myself to sleep because I woke up several hours later and went up to bed, thinking that I was whole again but also missing Lee more than ever and cried myself to sleep. I woke up in the morning hugging my pillow, which was still wet with my tears.
This morning, my emotions are flooding me. They are emotions of joy and grief and am so looking forward to Many and Little Jack coming over for lunch as I just need someone and she will understand better than anyone else I know.