30/05/2016
Hello all, I am C, now 24 large build with a beautiful wife ME. I was just talking with a friend on how I first got into the scene/community, and what got me interested in kink and I thought i would share.
When I was in my senior year of high school, I was kind of an outcast overweight kid who was very lonely and just looking for anyone to show interest in me. I started dating a girl who went to a different school and was a year older then me. She was shorter, maybe 5 foot 2, a little plump with giant double d breasts. This was my first girlfriend so I had no idea what I was doing, but she was how to say a very experienced in sexuality, she was a exhibitionist and wanted everyone to know it.
Her favorite thing to do would be to find anyway to hide us doing sexual things in plain view. We would be under a blanket watching a movie with my family in the room and would move herself to a position where she could pull my dick out and start jerking me off while grabbing my hand and putting it in between her legs. Now I am an exhibitionist as well but even being on a separate couch and covered with a blanket in a somewhat dark room, it was very uncomfortable doing that stuff with my family around hoping that they would not notice(like im sure most people would be), so anytime we were alone in my room, I would be pissed at her for doing that but also horny as any 18 year old would be.
So when we got to my room I would get my pay back. It would usually start with some rough groping and stripping of her clothes. Again this was my first girlfriend and before this i had never even touched a women body in such a way so i was full of that feeling of excited and terrified. This is when I first learned what direction my sexual interests went. She would kind of play the in charge rule no matter what i tried to do witch I didn't enjoy, so I grabbed her arms and pinned them down witch made her eyes light up and she would let out a slight pained moan. This caught me off guard just a pulse of pleasure that went through my body, a feeling of control . It slowly got rougher and rougher leading to biting and scratching, spankings, pinching her nipples with clothes pins, hair-pulling, tying her breasts with rope and tittyfucking her while pinning her to the bed, pleasure in pain BDSM. She would love every minute of it, but not as much as me.
The scary thing for me at the time was even though we both were enjoying our rough sexual partnership, I genuinely felt at the time that something was wrong with me because I got such pleasure from her pain. I didn't think it was sexual pleasure I was feeling but just enjoyment of her pain. I now know that was not the case at all. I was lonely and just needed someone to want me and she was a sexual person who just needed a play partner. We never actually had PIV sex, but did just about everything else. We separated 5 months after we started dating when I caught her with someone else. It was a hard lesson to learn, but thanks to this relationship I learned more about my self then I ever thought possible.
8 Months later I went to college and met my now wife, and truly discovered what was important to me in life. I have lost 100 lbs since high school, am one of the happiest married men alive, and me and my wife our slowly diving more and more into our fetish lifestyle. We actually uploaded some pictures a few months ago to this site as well.
http://www.truthordarepics.com/dares/wifeme/
Sorry for the rant, and thank you for reading. I feel it is so important to learn about what your sexual interests are and to not be afraid of them. There are plenty of people in all category of fetishes,from vanilla to the rockiest of roads. Haha. The last thing I will say is if you ever need support there are plenty of people and places to go to help you understand what you feel and to share your experiences and learn from others so you can always do it safe.