24/10/2025
I have been dating my bf for nearly 3 years. Due to my complicated past sex has always been awkward for me. My bf is very understanding, but at the beginning of this year, he confessed he wanted more...
Feeling guilty, I tried to step it up. That same week, while he was on top of me working, I decided to grab a secret dildo I kept hidden away. I looked right into his eyes and started to deep throat it. He gripped my night gown and said, "That’s my little Asian slut." I instantly soaked our sheets and had the most intensive orgasm of my life.
That is when issues started. We tried to recreate that moment numerous times, upping the slutty factor, but it never reached that point again. My desperation got the best of me one afternoon and I acted on one of our fantasies that should've stayed a fantasy... I blew a coworker in our living room and let him record me on my phone. I ended up both hating / regretting it.
I kept the video hidden away for a few months occasionally watching it on my own to fight off any new desperation... Eventually, the guilt took control over me one night during doggy... I unlocked my phone and slid it towards him while he was still hammering into me.
There was a long pause followed by the sounds of the video... I buried my head and started apologizing profusely berating myself saying I was a bad gf / whore. He agreed and started rage pounding into me and I finally hit that orgasm again.
We did have a fight afterwards and I thought he would leave me. I have no desire to cheat again but I will find ways to make that orgasm happen again. I do love him and was sorry.
Poster:
Try Hard