06/05/2025
I'm a woman, aged 36, a single mother, and living with 2 children. My oldest is 12 years old and the youngest is 3...it is important for me to tell you their age, and I'll tell you why.
It has been 3 years since my husband passed away, and for 3 years I grieved, I still do. But I never strayed. Not in the sense of straying. He is no more. I can see other men. But I did not think it would be proper. I could not bring myself to. My mother wanted me to 'see' other men, re-marry, and settle down. I was young, she said. It is not too late, she said. She was right. I was young (subjectively) and I had my needs too...something that has been quite gnawing at me. These needs. Sexual needs. I noticed that I'd get horny in the middle of the night, and I would finger myself to sleep and I'd cry. It was sad and depressing.
2 years later, a man in my office began to approach me. He was nice and kind and funny and charming. But I held myself. There were many instances when we would have ended up in bed. Our sexual tension was...electrifying. But it wasn't just my 'chasteness' to my late husband that kept me from getting naked for this man and bouncing on his dick...no. It was because I was afraid of my daughter.
She is 12 and she hates any man who approached me. Romantically or otherwise. She would raise hell and throw tantrum. And she is at that impressionable age. So, once when the gentleman was in my house: he was in the living room, we were both laughing, my hands on his lap and his on my thighs, and that was she walked in. She raised such a ruckus that I vowed never to meet him or any man. For her sake.
But today, just hours before I write this, I met him, and I stripped myself naked for the man and gave away any sense of shame or guilt for a few hours as I let lust take control of my body. I fucked him as much as he fucked me. We were like two wild beasts. Grunting and moaning. It was my first sex in the past 3 years.
And yet I feel confused. Oddly guilty. And yet have no regrets. Satisfied. Yearning for more. Horny. Corrupted. And a lot of emotions I can not articulate.
Poster:
Addeey